mental-emotional: the breaking of a mental-emotional belief/form into a reality/emptiness--J and simply requiring that I recognize the probabilities and truths of the situation; shock of happiness, love in the highest--joy the man, Peter, who did me wrong but apologized kindly when confronted...the weight dropped through to the core and I am left with happiness, hugeness of freedom and fullness, he gives me what I need, what I desired for so long, freedom from my own projections, I saw him as a man out to destroy me for no good reason, I found he was actually a man that didn't think things through, stupid as I might be at some point in my life. Not perfect but also not evil. We all gained from the torment and lost--this strikes harder than J could, lovely as she is.
Physical: walking in cold, stress, lack of sleep, the bac/virus going around, the time of year the body decides to detox, rid itself of wastes, rest and rebuild+difficulty resting and rebuilding with the reuqirements on my time.
Long term mental emotional (not just last night): more friends/play time, love/mate time, up to an adequate non-excessive, but adequate level
long term physical: allergies, not enough time outside, yoga, nutrition--yet also the amounts of these things I have done allow me to mount this response and have as much defense as I have.
short term chemical: immunoplus and emergency, as well as liver and soup
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