sc2 insights

I'm pleased to find that there is something in me no longer interested in playing the game of needing to win and fuzzy pleasure feelings in the body. While surely it is part of my being, I'm knowing a solid structure which desires learning and worthwhile competition which is often accompanied by a heavy heart of loss and a sober mind. However, I find the greater joy, the bigger self which knows not only the pleasure and win-seeking self but the one which transcends and includes it at a higher/deeper level. I still feel the heaviness of failure, and yet I am happy to know I am learning, I'm freed from the tethers of a confining view on happiness which only sees winning and "pleasure" feelings as happiness--it is not only confining, but also non conducive to long term happiness. The happiness I know is deeper, wiser, and more mature--it doesn't say that the other is wrong, but like action figures, I've grown out of them into something which suits me better. With this I pursue victory in my game.